one time i was afraid

well afraid's not a good word...nervous. this is one of the few times i can actually remember feeling nervous towards the direction of fear.

the other night i finished work at 10pm but i was in the middle of an argument with a friend online (not really an argument, just a miscommunication, but i was fuming) and so i stomped the whole way home and then changed and headed out to the pc bang. once i got there we finished our conversation and my anger was released because it was unnecessary. but the boy sitting at the computer across from me kept staring at me. for a long time. he stood up like he was looking for someone and just stared at me for a very long time. annoyingly, but i am an avoidance person. then when i was leaving i was standing up packing my bag and he started staring at me again. to the point that it was making me angry, but i didn't know what to say. i was nervous that it was a pseudo stalker i have from the other pc bang.

anyways, i walked home a bit quickly because i thought i heard someone walked behind me and i didn't want this boy to follow me to my home because then i could never get rid of him. (i'm too nice!) anyways, i went into my gate and door as quick as possible. then i felt ok.

then about 10 to 15 minutes later there was this weird sound. i couldn't place it until about the 5th time when i realized someone was throwing rocks at my door. oh well, i live with 5 other girls, must be one of their boyfriends. but i think the persistence of it and the already elevated emotions from the pc bang situation, i was getting nervous. so i made myself angry. :)

i started swearing and saying one more and i'm going out there. so i pumped myself up thinking of all the korean i had to throw at this person, whoever it was! and he threw it again! so i whipped open the stomped out to see....nothing. there was one guy in a pink shirt with his phone open but i couldn't tell if he was passing by or he was the culprit. but there was no one else out there - except a big fat rat which reminds me to keep cleaning my house! :) hehe

it was weird. all that was left of that weird situation is 10 rocks laying near my door.

a secret admirer? i think not. i think it was a lost boyfriend. but either way i know my fears were unfounded, i was just emotional. but an interesting experience none the less.

~amber